I'm stressed up.. I was practically stoning while having my lunch earlier. Reason? Work... I have so many things to do ever since I'm back from the trip. Tons of follow-ups and worse, I need to take over someone else's work because that person claim he has no time to follow-up.

While I know that this is just a temporary phrase, I have to admit that I don't like this feeling. Maybe I have been giving myself unnecessary stress.

If only I can just work like a typical worker and not get myself stressed up over company's performance. If only... but unfortunately, I can't.. End of the day, it goes back to the same old reason.. Money!!

Can I don't work anymore please? Haha!

Gone...

It's been quite awhile since I blog. As most of you will have known, I was away for a business trip to Seattle (and Vancouver) for the past 10 days.

Weather was nice especially in the mornings and evenings. It felt as though the entire city was air-conditioned. Meals were expensive though. A simple basic sandwich costs US$7 easily. I got sick of eating bread and burgers barely 3 days down the trip.

Drove up to Canada to see see look look after the convention. Suppose to attend a networking party at Vancouver but we didn't make it due to the horrible traffic. We finally reached Vancouver after like 5 hours (instead of the usual 3-4)

Vancouver felt so much like HongKong though. Tons of Asians and they are mostly from HongKong, I almost forgot I was in Canada though while walking along the street. Spent a nite before heading back to Seattle. Gas (Petrol) is cheap though, the entire trip only costs us US$45.

I'm badly suffering from Jet lag as I'm typing this though. Woke up at 2am earlier, force myself to sleep, woke up again at 3:30 and finally decide to start my day at 5:30 just now. I so sure that I will start getting sleepy by 12noon (just like yesterday).

Will go lie down for awhile and hopefully, I'll get to sleep for the next 2 hours and wake up at 9:30, the time which I had set for my alarm to go off.

Gone...

A's eldest sister called me this afternoon and asked me if I will be free on 20 September.
"It's still a long way ahead leh, how will I know." was my answer. "Anyway, what's up?" I asked.

"It's my wedding!" she replied and she was telling me that she hope I will be able to reach earlier on that day.

"How come?" I asked again and she said... "Coz you are part of the family."

At that very second, I was touched... deeply!!

Though it's been a year since I have shifted out and we (me and the sis) haven been contacting at all. I really appreciate this thought of hers a lot.

I can still clearly remember that on the day I shifted out, she was the one who came to talk to me and asking me not to shift. She was also the one who tried her best to help in every way she can.

Though we have parted and A is seeing someone now, I still thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you have done.

All the best in your new found happiness and may you both stay happy and loving till the end.

With sincere wish. =)

Saw this on facebook but decide to do it on my blog instead.

What was your last:
1. last beverage = Yackult
2. last phone call = Veron
3. last text message = Chuan Wei
4. last song you listened to = You Hong Ming - 与爱情无关.
5. last time you cried = can't recall

Have you ever:
6. dated someone twice = No
7. been cheated on = Yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Don't think so
9. lost someone special = Yes
10. been depressed = Seldom
11. been drunk and threw up = Once in a blue moon

List 3 favorite colors:
12. White
13. Black
14. Gray

This year (2009), have you:
15. Made a new friend = Of course
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Don't think so
18. Met someone who changed you = Nope
19. Found out who your true friends were = I already knew who they are long time back
20. Found out someone was talking about you = No, can't be bothered anyway
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list = Yes

General:
22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life = I guess 70-80%?
24. Do you have any pets = Used to but not anymore
25. Do you want to change your name = No, I love my name
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Drunk at the chalet
27. What time did you wake up today = 12 noon
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Outside with friend
29. Name something you cannot wait for = Pay to be reinstated
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Can't think of any now
32. What are you listening to right now = Jolin Tsai - 妥協
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = I don have a friend by this name
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Nothing
35. Most visited web page = Facebook
36. Where do you want to be right now = No where in particular
37. Nicknames = Beng counted?
38. Relationship Status = Single
39. Zodiac sign = Virgo
40. Male or female? = Male
41. Elementary? = Some primary
42. Middle School = Some secondary
44. Hair color = Black
45. Long or short = short
46. Height = Tall enough
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Who never?
48: What do you like about yourself? = Generally everything
49: Piercings = Yes
50: Tattoos = No
51. Righty or lefty= Right

Firsts:
52. First surgery = Army
53. First piercing = Can't recall
54. First best friend = Those close to me enough will know who
55. First kiss = Can't recall
56. First vacation = Secondary 2
58. First crush = Primary school classmate

Right now:
59. Eating = Just had my dinner earlier
60. Drinking = Nothing
61. I'm about to = doing this whole thingy
62. Listening to = Still the same track by Jolin
63. Waiting for = Nothing

Your future:
64. Want kids? = No
65. Get Married?= Depends
66. Career? = Still working for it

Which is better:
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Doesn't matter
70. Older or Younger = Doesn't matter
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Both can? Lol
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Hesitant

Have you ever:
76. Kissed a stranger = Yes
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Nope
79. Sex on first date = Don't think so
80. Broken someone's heart = Yes
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes
82. Been arrested = Nope
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = Yup
85. Fallen for a friend? = No

Do you believe in:
86. Yourself = Of course
87. Miracles = A little
88. Love at first sight = Maybe
89. Heaven = I'm a christian
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = Why not
92. Angels = No

Answer truthfully:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= No
95. Did you sing today? = Yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = No idea
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Secret
99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = I dunno
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = Done, on my blog

I'm so in love with this song...

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

My flight has been confirmed. Will be departing Singapore at 5:40am on this Sunday. That will mean I need to reach Changi airport around 4am. It's gonna be a long flight and I will be transiting in Japan for 2 hours. I can only pray hard that I won't suffer too much from jet lag upon reaching Seattle.

Will be spending the first 5 days in Seattle follow by 2 days in Vancouver before returning to Seattle to catch my plane back to SG. As shown below, I will be touching down SG on 28 July (Tuesday) at around 1am.

The timezone is GMT-7 in Seattle, Washington. Well, I will be 15 hours behind you guys during my stay there. Expect to see me online in MSN and Facebook in weird hours then... =)

Nicholas Chan Wei Kit, an army officer who's only 21 this year died in an accident which pinned him under a Land Rover when it rolled back and hit him.

I can't imagine how devastated his parents will be since he's the only child in the family, born to them through in-vitro fertilization.

My deepest condolences to his parents.

Read the full story here.

God bless him and his family...

Just got news from my CEO that I will need to fly to the States with him again for yet another convention in 2 weeks time. This time round, we will be going to Seattle.

I probably depart Singapore on the 18th or 19th this month and stay there for 5 days before making our way back.

Did a weather forecast check and temperature seems nice ranging from 13 to 18 degrees Celsius.
Time to wear my formal business suit again...

I guess everyone have their fair share of problems be it relationship, career, friends or family. I have mine too.

Recently, I realize it has become harder and harder for me to communicate with my dad. He will get agitated over the slightest thing and all I can and will do is to keep quiet. There's no point arguing back as that will only drift our distance even further.

Things aren't really going smoothly at home and there's nothing much I can do. At times like this, I really wish to shift out so that I don't have to face his questions and attitude. Too bad my financial doesn't permit me to do so. (In fact, my dad was just telling me that he hope I can shift out real soon)

You know there are times where one can suddenly feel very emotional. I guess I'm in one right now. I feel tired... both mentally and physically but I have to and will stay strong. I wish there's someone whom I love to hug me tight right now but alas, there isn't. Well, I'm a human after all. *weak smile*

I know there are people out there who really care for me a lot and hope to share their lives with me. Unfortunately, one can't really choose to love. All I can say is only sorry. Hope you all find your happiness soon.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my financial will reinstate in the near future. I so longed for a place that I can call my own. Either I wait for another 4 years or I have to opt for private. Either ways, I'll be contented.

Anyway, this entry is simply just for me to vent out all my erm... suppressed emotions? I'm still happy with my life currently though it had been a long day at work today and I still gotta work tomorrow as well as on Sunday.

Jaron and gang should be in KL right now. If only I am there too.
Time to turn in, gotta wake up early again tomorrow.

Those who read this, do not worry about me yeah?
I'm sure you guys and gals know that I always know how to take good care of myself.

I guess I just need a channel to release and this humble blog happen to be the best one available.
I will be okay after a nice sleep.

Nitez to myself! =)

This is super funny...
I'm shocked that Rosalyn actually blurted out.. "Huh? Kong Simi Lan Jiao"

LMAO!!