I just realise that I have never been so broke. Till date, my bank account has less than 100 bucks. It seems that not-so-nice issues have been popping up. Will be temporary having a pay deduction for the time being, decided not to tell my family about it as I don't really want them to worry unnecessarily. On top of that, I have to fork out $1000 for my car loan, not forgetting my credit card bills, Internet bill, insurance, saving plans, carpark, family allowance and the list goes on. I don't think I will even have any AWS or bonus this year end.

Been through some unhappiness recently, things which I don't want to mention. Why do family members have to fall out over money? Received a MSN from my aunt "feedbacking" that she's disappointed to realise my mum actually claimed money for some stuffs she bought for my grandma. To think my mum have actually taken care of my grandma for the past one decade and they being their own daughters only know how to complain this, complain that. My family is falling out with all my uncles and aunties. Just because my grandma decides to pass the house to my dad has given us tons of troubles and problems. Everyone is eyeing for the house. Typical drama some may say and YES, it's happening in to us. I believe in karma. As long as one conscious is clear, there's nothing much to worry. However, this does stop them for quarrelling over and over again for stupid and silly stuffs.

For those who plan to get married, NEVER give your house to just one of your offspring. If necessary, split everything equally to prevent close siblings to become hated enemies. I thank god that I will never have this problem..

Year ending real soon. Hope next year will be a much better year for me.

Jay Chou's concert ticket selling at Sistic on Monday 9am sharp. Most of my colleagues will be going but unfortunately, the date crashed with my Bangkok trip. Guess its fated that I'm not able to go for any concert these few months. Btw, Jay's new album is coming out on 2 Nov. This time, he choose a totally different style. Amercian old school village. Reminds you of cowboys and stuffs. Nice outfit but his dance steps look abit funny in the MV though. After viewing the MV, two things came to my mind. Madonna & Western Bar. (Google Western Bar Game if you don't know what I mean). For those who have yet to preview his new song and MV. Here's you go! (You might want to scroll down and pause the imeem player first)



Celebrated Gary's birthday last weekend over dinner and KTV. The usual gang was there. They then proceed to St James while Baby and myself headed home. It's been ages since I step into St James. Anyway, will be heading there for Alvinkino's birthday. Year end approaching and tons of birthday celebrations. It always started with mine in September and all the way till December.

Going to ECP to blade later. Been months since I last exercise. Love the feeling of perspiring after exercise but always damn lazy to go. I just cannot understand how come some can go jogging every evening or go gym 3 times weekly without fail? Perhaps it all leads down to self determination and discipline...

14 October, exactly one month after my birthday. It's Gary's birthday and I can't reallly remember how long have we known each other. At least 5 years or more.. My wish for him. To stay happy and not dwell over the past anymore. When it's time to move on, it's time to move on. Time doesn't stop for anyone. All of us only lived once. Live it with no regrets. Ups and Downs are what makes life interesting. What comes down will eventually go up again. I'm sure you know it deep within.

Life has been boring with all the daily routine daily. Work, home, eat, watch tv programmes, sleep and back to work again. Just went to color my hair earlier, told the stylist that I want to keep my hair so he suggested to just do a color to make my hair less boring and untidy.

Having dinner with Gary and gang soon at Golden Mile tower later for his birthday celebration. I think we had dinner there last year during his birthday as well. It's great to meet the gang again. All the laughters, craps and jokes. Guess they are the only colors (besides Baby) to excite my mundane life. Hahaha!

Going to take a shower before I go and pick Baby for the dinner. Happy Birthday Gary, my dear buddy! =)

Just came back from a nice and short Batam trip last weekend. Trip was short but fun with all the laughter and jokes from everyone. We went for a city tour with our tour guide. The seafood lunch was horrible. Have to eat with 3 aunties who was joining us for the city tour.

We went to the local snack shop as well as polo house. Nothing much to buy. Had a 1.5 hour massage session before meeting Cindy, Jaron and Gary at the shopping mall. Massage was not bad but the mall doesn't really have much to shop. Jaron bought the most stuffs. I bought a tee and a berms while baby just bought a berms only.

Had to wait for that 3 idiotic aunties who were almost 1 hour late in the bus. What's their fucking problem, I'm totally disgusted by their actions. Typical Singaporeans who doesn't even know how to follow instructions. Old liao still think you are primary school students who need a push as and when?

Spend the rest of the time at the resort which was quite nice but apparently, we wasted time again when we found out some discrepancies about the suite that we had booked. Shall not go into details on this.

Dinner was better though it wasn't really value for money. Can't help since we are kinda trapped and 45 minutes away from the city. Everyone was so tired after dinner. Suppose to gather at Cindy's room to play cards but one after another fall asleep. Who ask them lah.. Play mahjong at Jaron's place the entire night.

Second day was boring. Had breakfast followed by Go-Kart. Nothing fantastic as this is not the first time I tried Go-Karting. The vehicle was bad as well as lok kok. Luckily, it was half-price which was S$15 for 10 minutes. Baby actually had a minor accident and some scratches on the leg.

Went back hotel to ignite the fireworks as stupid us forget to ignite them the previous nite. Can't really see much as it was so bright. The rest of the day was spoilt by the rain, everyone went back to sleep except me and baby who went to play pool.

Checked out at 2pm and store our baggages with the reception. Went to their piano lounge and play scrabble while Baby and Gary went for sun-tanning. End up getting the least scores. My English sucks. Hahaha!

Finally left Batam at 6 plus and reach HarbourFront at about 9pm. All of us had dinner at Hans before heading back home. Hope to go to Bintam the next time.

Gary's birthday this Sunday, going to have a gathering on Saturday night after Sammi's concert. Hope he will stay happy and strong. We are there no matter what happens yeah?

Just got a news that the company is facing some financial issues and a few of the senior guys will have to get a temporary pay deduction for the time being. I was one of them in the list. Guess I must start to think very carefully when spending money now. Hope the company will get on track real soon. May god bless us!

It's been some time since I last blog. For some reason, my mood hasn't been that good due to the fact that work has been up and downs. Getting a start-up company to go on track can be really taxing and tough. Of course, there are days of happiness and motivations but there are days of low morale as well. Was feeling quite low morale last night while on the way home. I kept thinking to myself how far the company can go. What if the entire business model doesn't work out.

I guess I just have to brush all these negative thoughts aside and concentrate on building up the company. I do miss the nice days when I was in AsiaSoft. The company was stablised, revenue being generated every second and my work is so-not-stress. Just hope that the day will come soon where I don't need to be so stressed up over work. Everyday come in, drink my coffee, check my email and leave most of the job to my guys below.

Going to orchard to sign a contract later. One more contract I have clinched for the company but a relatively small one. How nice if there's one contract to be signed every week.

Going to batam for a short holiday this weekend with baby and my buddies. It's been a long time since I have a break. Must really take this opportunity to relax my mind. I'm looking forward to this sat.

Gary's birthday is coming. Still dunno how he wants to celebrate. No news from him so far. Perhaps just a simple dinner somewhere quiet. Wondering how he is now. Was chatting with him few days back and he was telling me that he has been drinking everyday even at work. Tried to talk him out of it but it doesn't seems to work. Just hope that his senses will come back soon. All is not over when love is. There are still tons of people who cares for you.

It amazes me how most people fails to realise that their actions may caused a big impact to those around them. A good example will be someone who broke up with gf or bf of perhaps 1 - 3 years. This person then lose all hopes and begins to self-torture with all means, failing to realise that in the act of doing so, hurting his/her parents and friends, destroying the years of careers. Is it worth it just because of one person whom you don't even know long enough? Some may argued that this is because of true love but I digress. A person whom doesn't even know how to love oneself does not have the rights to say he/she knows how to really love another person. Subjective?? I leave it to you guys to decide...