I have been feeling so lethargic lately. It seems like nothing can excite me anymore. Spend the whole week doing the same thing over and over again. Wake up, work, gym, home, sleep only to wake up again.

I dunno why I'm feeling this way, lying down on bed last night, I felt helpless about everything. So much so that I start to question myself. I always tell everyone that you choose to live the way you want everyday. Happy or sad, it's really up to the individual to choose how they are going to live each day. Deep within, I understand this more than anyone else. However, it suddenly seems so hard to cross over that little thin line. I even linger on the thought of seeing a doctor to get some medication to "numb" my emotions.

I'm not sure if it's due to my work, my finance or relationship. Maybe everything plays a part to it. I need to get out of this whole thing and I know that I have to depend on no one but myself to do that.

Sitting alone in office as I'm typing this, I suddenly have the urge to cry but something hold the tears back. I don't like what I'm feeling now and I don't know what I should do...