I hate the feeling of troubled by monetary issues. I know it should be the last thing to bother me but realistically, it did affect me in one way or another.

Friends buying christmas gifts for me and I don't have the capability to return any. I guess I have never been in such a sorry plight in the past 30 years of my life. Perhaps I really did a very wrong move of throwing my entire savings and get my car without any loan.

I always believe in working for passion and not money coz I believe money will come automatically if you have the passion and correct working attitude. Somehow, when the cold hard cruel truth sets in, when you need to pay for this and that, you'll start to realize money really does wonders.

Friends have been telling me that they are always hearing me saying I'm broke. Given a choice, will I choose to say it? However, did I not always make it an effort to share birthday presents no matter how tight I am? I don't blame them for making this statement though.

I guess I'm just angry with myself. There are always ups and downs in everyone's life. I'm amazed that I actually survived with 1/3 pay of what I used to get home for the past 1 year. Some may find me stupid. Yes or no, I know it better than anyone else. There's always a risk in everything. I choose to bet on the potential of my company. If I succeed, I won't forget those who I'm in debt with. If I don't, I won't be afraid to start all over again.

Thanks to those who have helped me in one way or another.
You guys know who you are...